A year ago, I would have scoffed if somebody had told me what happened tonight. Don't look at me like that! It's not that bad! It's just... weird. Tonight I had youth group, which is always fun, but tonight... tonight was confusing. I felt myself wanting to ask out a friend who I've been "casual" with lately. This is weird. I got casual with her, promising myself it would only be casual. But for some reason, I have real trouble living up to that.
On the other hand, she keeps asking me why I don't want to go back out with one of my exes. I've dated him twice before, in fact, he was my first kiss. The thing is though, both times we dated, it didn't exactly end well. Both of us have matured since we last dated, but it still feels weird, and part of me just doesn't want to have to explain why I'm dating him again. Most people still view him as immature, and childish, annoying, all that stuff. (I know I still do at times.) But I don't know yet if I'm only doubtful because of his social standing, or if it's actually because I don't like him.
Wow. Being sixteen sucks. Why so confusing!? WHY?
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